Bye bye.

I really don't like the idea of all good things coming to an end. Why do people say that? Do all good things really have to come to an end? I don't think they do. Why can't things just stay good? I would love for things to just stay how they are right now. Every thing is fine. It seems like every year I end up with a new set of friends, and all my old ones seem to fall off the face off the Earth. Some times I see someone I used to know and I think"They actually exist?!" because the memory of them is so blurry and warped that it's hard to believe I ever knew them. Maybe because I feel very different from how i used to be, and I am. 

There is a girl I was very good friends with long long ago. We weren't best friends, but we were pretty close I guess. Our school closed down and it seems like from the very first day at our new school she just disappeared. Though I don't blame her, I changed too and probably didn't seem like the kind of person she would want to be friends with any more. But the thing that gets me is that ever since then she hasn't spoken to me. If I try to talk to her she acts like she doesn't know me, if I walk past her and smile, she'll avoid eye contact. But the sad thing is she wasn't the first OR last person this has happened with. 

Every year it's a new set of friends and a new best friend. I've had the same best best friend since I was 4 years old, but we haven't gone to the same school since we were really little, so I have always had a best friend at school. Year 7 I was pretty close with this one girl, but she moved school when we got told our school would be closed in a year. I didn't see her again until last year. Year 8 I was close with a couple of people, but they all went when we moved school. Year 9 was this other girl from the new school. We were really close and did every thing together, but we had an unfortunate falling out. In year 10 we were still pretty close, but she kept moving in and out of town, so I become closer to someone I was already friends with. We're still pretty good friends, but now that we go to different colleges and hang out with very different groups, we sadly don't spend as much time together. I don't know who my closest friends from last year and this year are, though I have some brilliant friends at the moment. I don't think I could choose who I'm closest with. I don't want these friendships to end, everything is perfect how it is right now. I look forward at what my life will be like in two years, and I can't see most of the people I'm friends with now in my life then.

I plan on moving away next year, but I can see some drama happening before I do. I don't know why or what about, but things have been to calm for too long. I'm surprisingly fine with losing most of my friends, I think I've gotten used to it. Which is kind of sad. The one person I don't want to lose any time soon is my boyfriend. I'm with out a doubt closest to him (and I don't just mean physically). Not to be gewy or any thing, but I really don't know what I would do if we broke up. I hope he's in my future. I hope most of my friends are.